Ten years ago, stepping into that old room with its blue-speckled, tiled floor, I had no idea I was embarking on a journey that would fundamentally shape my life. That room was the beginning of my life as a Bharatanatyam Dancer.
Bharatanatyam, an ancient and revered Indian classical dance form originating from South India, has been the rhythm of my life since childhood. For years, this art form has been more than just steps and music; it’s been a deep-seated passion. As I transition into adulthood, a mix of nervousness and excitement bubbles within me as I contemplate the future of my devotion to Bharatanatyam.
Weekly dance practices, under the same patient guru and alongside cherished friends, have woven a comforting routine into my life. The thought of not seeing my dance community regularly, of not attending those familiar practices, feels almost unimaginable. This consistent presence of Bharatanatyam has become a cherished anchor.
There have been moments, especially recently, leaving practice with a lump in my throat and tears welling up. The realization that time is relentless, and this comforting rhythm might shift, is poignant. This familiar comfort, so easily taken for granted, will soon need to accommodate new priorities and directions in my life.
However, I know deeply that my relationship with Bharatanatyam is far from ending. Looking ahead to college at the University of Texas, I eagerly anticipate joining the school’s Bharatanatyam dance team. Beyond college, my vision includes continued classes, immersive summer workshops, and perhaps even sharing my passion by teaching. This change is exciting; a new chapter in my dance journey, even though the landscape of learning will undoubtedly evolve.
Yet, this excitement is intertwined with a bittersweet farewell. My guru, Shalini Varghese Chandragiri, has been a constant witness to my growth. From an innocent, quiet eight-year-old, through the tumultuous teenage years of a One Direction fan, to the person I am today at eighteen. I’ve also been privileged to witness her journey, from her early Arangetrams (Bharatanatyam dance graduations) to marriage and motherhood.
Shalini Aunty, as I affectionately call her, is more than a guru; she’s been a mentor, a guide, embodying the roles of guru, mother, sister, and confidante. The life lessons imparted by her, both within and beyond the dance studio, are invaluable, etched into my very being. Her unique, sometimes quirky, but always joyful spirit has been a daily influence I’ve grown deeply accustomed to. While I plan to return home and continue to ‘annoy’ her with my presence, the prospect of distance, of being nearly 200 miles away, tugs at my heartstrings.
The friendships forged within the dance school are equally irreplaceable. Vinita Mundluru, a dear friend and dance partner of seven years, has been my go-to person for advice on everything – dance, academics, and the labyrinth of life. Countless hours spent deciphering dance notes, intense practice sessions, and heart-to-heart conversations over breakfast have blurred the lines of our four-year age difference and distinct life stages.
Arathi School of Dance has been instrumental in shaping my identity. Bharatanatyam has instilled in me the importance of inner strength, the pursuit of light in moments of darkness, and the unwavering power of practice and perseverance. The warm, inclusive environment of this dance school has fostered a sense of belonging, making it a true second home, and its people, an extended family.
I understand that life is about change, and for me, change signifies evolution, not cessation. Though physical distance will separate us, my dance school, my guru, and my dance family will remain integral threads in the tapestry of my life.
This piece is a heartfelt expression of gratitude – to my parents for their unwavering support, to Arathi School of Dance for providing a nurturing space, and to the divine for allowing me to be a small part of the vast and beautiful history of Bharatanatyam. My deepest hope is to make those who have shaped my journey and nurtured my love for Bharatanatyam proud, as I continue to dance my path in this timeless art form.
